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Monday, May 15th, 2006
3:31 pm	=o= anyway...back to toronto. dies...counsellor meeting, and everything...orzzzz (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 5th, 2006
11:54 am	rurutia-traumerei http://www.163888.net/sing/music/3268041.html for anyone who wants to hear me making a fool of myself singing rurutia's traumerei. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
9:30 pm	aki/agi relit orz bad title eh? all i was trying to say was that my luv for akito/agito was relit after 坚 told me she was into them too。 i was like。。。when was the last time i drew those beloved kids？ wait。。。they‘re one person XD but i luv both of them。 Also a bit of update on FMA fan pics too...i might do this one as a print for AN, the fma army picture. weather is really nice outside, the canadian goose came back to our school yards, with my bad eyesight i was walking down the corridor with Ophelia and asked, pointing at a rabbit three floors below, if it was a kangaroo...i didn't know what i was thinking but it sure looked like a kangaroo to me...my glasses orz something about Toronto that is similar to beijing...there is typically no spring and rarely any fall, the season just moves from extreme cold to extreme hot within a matter of 24 hours. Aside from giving me a sense of home, it was just an excellent chance to catch cold, and then grow used to being extremely cold in the summer and vice versa, since the day/night temperature difference is so big it feels like two different seasons with no intermediate temperature. on the other hand i might start the chinese novel writing again...just something constructive to do over the vacation, not like i haven't got too much already...i'm also planning to learn some cantonese from my roomies. another thing about "spring", everyone's either sick or allergic...luckily i've always been resistant to disease, so... actually am back now, dad came and checked in, thankfully he brought me a frying pan so now i can actually cook real chinese food instead of having to boil everything. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
2:06 pm	game making journal entry 1 Apr. 29th: 不知道这东西是否会成功……老实说，很多东西就这样半途而废……不过希望这个能成功吧。 26-27号的时候……嗯，刚开始是看了好多游戏手册后想做一个伪游戏手册，可是没想到大家都有反响想做个游戏呢。然后不知道为什么第一个想到的就是坚果咯。大概因为她离的近画的好吧XD 很容易联系呢。 不指望任何人会看这个，只是想找个地方记录一下日程而已。生病难受已经两天了ORZ自从发了那帖后……难道是天谴？XD 话说回来倒也奇怪。跟坚联系是26号，在跟她QQ时，一边说，一边丝毫没有概念的游戏大纲就像水一样从脑海里顺理成章的流出来了，一点也不费力。刚开始一点主意都没有所以才说想做普通养成游戏，因为那东西不需要太多故事……可是说着说着故事就浮现了，一口气不停的把整个剧本编完了。 说实话，这真的很悲文派吧。坚说她很不喜欢这些结局，我还有点担心组里的其他人会都不接受，可是其实反响还好，大家除了一些细节的修改以外还基本上能同意。 27号立刻去建立个论坛为了游戏工作组以及成为未来的游戏论坛，可是发现论坛需要等待批准，而我是世界上耐心最短的人……所以干脆跑去开了个BLOG可是没过几个小时发现居然论坛已经被通过批审而开通了，真是奇迹啊……我还以为得需要几天，不过好歹论坛开通了……联系了大家要去注册。嗯……即使身体不舒服还是能运做的。 28号……画完了所有（居然是一口气的）小白的身体姿势稿以及脸部表情稿。后来有种发高烧的感觉XD 然后好象……好象第一期海报的图也是那时画完的。 今天，29号……基本上没画什么。画了一张海报般的小白的图，放到DEV ART上以及论坛上。回答了一些在论坛上的问题……那张海报小白图啊XD 再次拾起了我对水彩手绘的热情。突然发现手一直在抖（因为几天无法消化任何营养），所以有的地方涂的不是很仔细……可是后来用PS处理了一下觉得基本上过的去。朋友因为要搬走所以送来了3大袋的速冻食品，她室友留下的，看来我明天搬到新宿舍的东西可真是多了去了啊，包括数不清的图……虽然这跟游戏没什么关系…… 晚上可能琢磨一下其他男孩角色吧，譬如说那些配对啦……一定要努力画蓝染以及银，还有……还有香蕉先生！XD 真的从此以后管白王子叫香蕉先生吧……那句“香蕉很有营养”简直太经典了。 现在暂时还缺人手呢……看看上色人员能否自己冒出来吧XD 如果有人能帮助那程序人员就好了……还有路线也是…唉…… later on啦……扫描仪已经被装起来了！=口=！ 好不容易画出来的便装香蕉（现在是打算让香蕉去现世接X与小白）与死神装恋次（不是小受哦！这次绝对不是受！虽然也不是很攻……不过比香蕉还攻，貌似……）结果却无法扫描……我的天，还有那么多东西要装，让我撞墙吧……工作进度相当于又进展了2个人的身体与普通表情。不知道是否该给白香蕉与恋次画出害羞的表情……大家人为白恋如何？小白年下攻呢？看看需要什么表情。不过这些侧面人物大概需要不是很多，尤其是香蕉……倒，他本来就貌似天生面容僵硬外加爱装酷……不过还是最喜欢他的~~花痴的去洗澡去了。（啊对了游戏里大概需要加一张小白猫猫入浴图呢////XD） (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
5:58 pm	The real life Ishbal War- september 11th This is very important, so please bear with me. I remember reading the part regarding the Ishbal war in Fullmetal Alchemist. You don't have to be a fan to understand the basics of that war...It was for personal purposes. The Homunculus, for their own gains, triggered a war and a massacre which effects a whole race of humans. It affected Roy, it put Doctor Marco into guilt, for they found later that the entire massacre was not for the country, but for personal gains. But hey, this is all just a story, just a story, so what? I didn't empathize with the characters, who would? Of course it's sad...but it's all just a story. It's hard to understand their extreme feelings... So, let's take a leap. Heard of something called the September 11th attack? Yeah that's right, the attack done by "terrorists" on the twin towers. I know i may not always be politically correct, but I just saw an interesting documentary regarding some aspects of the world trade center attack on September 11th that even I've been dying to know. I knew that when I watched the building fall, that it looked exactly like a demolition explosion. If a plane were to hit from the side, why would the building fall straight down? Why would there be smaller explosions which went on inside the building at many floors below and completely unrelated to the plane? So many things just didn't make sense at all as I watched the towers fell. It was very interesting, as a 9th grader, watching from a tiny TV on top of a fridge, something which shook the foundation of the United States, and yet, something which could, instead of Bin Laden, be planned by the government, executed by the government, to raise anti-islamic spirits in the American society. I always believed that there is a price to peace. There always will be...War is the price to peace. Humans, being what we are, do not just simply all conform to peace by our own will due to our differences. So...what are the price to the war which helped raised the oh-so-anti-terrorist Bush raise his ratings? A great price paid for something not so worth it i'd definitely say... So please, even if you truly do believe in the Bush administration, go take a look at the following documentary. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5137581991288263801&q=loose+change+2 IT is one of the scariest thing i've ever seen...no blood, no gore...but that's precisely it. the plane that crashed into Pittsburgh...no bodies, no plane debris, and ended up in ... Cleveland?? It is one of the scariest things i'll ever see. It depicts what length people will go "for" war, for winning the election, for power. I'm just a normal civilian with no knowledge of deeper politics, but this video answered the many questions which I had in mind. if this is true...It shines light on an aspect of humanity we have never dared to imagine. "Plane skidded across the lawn and crashed into the pentagon" without leaving traces on the lawn or wing marks on the pentagon walls? A plane crash in pittsburgh without any dead bodies?! or plane debris?! internal explosions going inside the tower? the tower "collapsing" at free fall speed?! What the hell is all this?! f*ck the f*cking administration, it's human lifes you're fiddling with!! DO YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF RIGHT OR WRONG?!?! Scarily enough, those terrorists who would so happily take responsiblity for the attacks they committed because it made them into heroes, denied knowledge to Sept. 11th. Bin Laden denied doing it, or having part in it. Bin Laden is left handed and yet in the confession video he wrote note with nis right hand? Wearing a golden ring forbidden by his religion? out of 1.67 billion gold stored underneath the world trade center, only 200 million was recovered? a huge chunck of missing gold was in a transport truck with empty and read to go escort cars in world trade building 5? And what else came out of the september 11th attack? don't tell me no one remembers afghanistan and Iraq with the oil fields? I actually cried at the end of the video. how sad is that? a documentary and I had to cry. It was the worst of humanity i've ever seen, and it began to make me question everything regarding democracy. With communism, it's like a saber-tooth tiger, the government's not afraid to show its fangs, practically everyone in beijing knows, even the taxi drivers know. If you dis the government you're practically done for. thye simply put you in jail, you'd disappear. the fangs are shining in the air. But September 11th showed that democracy is like a snake in the grass, it bites hard and almost with perfectly planned precision, and almost leaving no trace of its own attack. but like a snake's attack, as small as the fang wounds may be, it's lethal, and always will leave a mark. I am not pro or anti americans, i must say i don't particularly like them because i've had some bad experiences, but hey... i cried, not because they were americans who died, but this event itself is just so dark in nature... sounds similar? ishbal war...september 11th? For private gains, whether it be for philosopher's stone for the homunculus or for power maintenance and gold like the US government... this is, in some respects, the real life Ishbal war. this is the reason why human trust is so low. why would we want to keep faith in democracy? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
2:48 pm	fever (possible spoiler for ending of Chrno Crusade) ok i have a fever right now...thank god my last test before the exam is over. am currently listening to some voice drama to make self feel better XD ok, i finished Chrno Crusades...I must say...#(%*&#(*$&% f*ck what the h*ll where they thinking!!! How the f*ck can they make Ewan Remington end the show looking like what he did! OMG! F*ck this all! They totally ruined his image!!! And he was my favorite too!! omg omg...Chrno and Rosette's ending was sad, and I really began to like Azmaria in the end...but f*ck this all I can't believe what they did with Remington! Gezuz it was so sad!! anyway that's kinda when i started throwing up and having a fever...gotta go get more sleep now. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 10th, 2006
3:29 am	XD gmail...and Chrono Crusade! I can't understand why gmail has such...such...such small attachment space orz i was trying to send a few songs to the Anime North karaoke track makers and music panel but...um... gmail sent my mail without the attachment and i think the panel now officially think i'm like mentally ill because i was like oh here's the music! and sent the attachment without it...gaaack... new series of FMA fanfic still on the running, i wonder how long i can keep up one chapter per day...probably until well until final exams orz Actually I just watched Chrono Crusade today XD was immediately impressed to the death by Ewan Remington who was just like Roy Mustang reincarnated...it was his personality and absolute hotness that just impressed me to hell orz he reminds me of roy so much i feel like i'm in love again...ok, 3 fav charas now, roy, ewan and rufus/////XD ok and also joshua christopher looks like alphonse elric and feels like alhponse elric orz but in a different way...chrono crusade reminds me of fullmetal alchemist ToT! i luv ewan! XD and to celebrate the fact that I finally learnt how to use lj-cut (hopefully) i will post pictures here..with lj cut XD (  oh god maybe this won't work ( <img src= ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
12:22 pm	more paint chats~ another wonderful night of paintchat...unfortunately 鲸was unable to jion us...ToT 鲸aaah i miss u aaah! XDD anyway decide to go on diet again this week like last week i've only had one meal with meat. i may be turning vegetarian...but everything's temporary XD i'm sure i'm not gonna be able to keep this up. weather outside is nice today but the nicer the weather gets the more i don't want to go outdoors orz the sun kills! XD just kidding, but i still don't want to go outside. the new Kuso story has had a lot of positive feedback, and now i'm planning to elongate the series. Caught 蝶online again on skype, and is talking now. ok, pictures from the prevoius paint chat. first wave of FF7AC ptchat: Top left frame: 岚夜SAN and CZZ san is just perfect as usual XD CZZ's Rufus ...drools, i luv that expression. 岚夜's Sephiroth is glowing! XD very very good picture. I can kinda imagine where there other hands are by seeing where sephiroth was looking...orz god sorry i just had to make this comment...XDD Then, Leafit san and Roadlight san's Nero and Vice, heard that they only appeared in Dirge of Cerberus. REally want to see it now...but since it's a game...lovely picture here XD both look so kute! luv the bathtub...which is strange since the beginning theme was actually getting wet (O.O lotta ways u could have intepreted it) but ended up like almost everyone's in the shower or bathtub...XD Alright, then it's me and 乌鸦san's Kadaj and Sephy. I drew Kadaj...like the wet shirt effect XD I actually really like 乌鸦san's Sephy, for it looked like it had the trinity Blood air to it, and i luv it XD Ok, the second "battle" Top left: Kadaj, by 黑酒san, Sephiroth, by 乌鸦san Top Middle: Sephiroth by 岚夜san, Cloud by Roadlight san Top right: Cloud by Leel san. bottom left: Cloud by蝶san. Bottom Middle: Cloud and Sephy by 血之苍雨san. Bottom right: Sephy by me, Cloud by roadlight san. ok guys, I know what you're thinking......the theme isn't kissing or anything, god, the theme is milk...ok, so some may appear to be feeding others milk...but it's just milk, not what you were thinking XDDD though it's kinda obvious that some of us, including me, wanted to make milk a little more exciting... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 7th, 2006
10:22 pm	sleep orz ok i'm gonna sleep now orz no updating pictures or anything today, I just got back from korean food wiht two friends and it's one of the best dinners i've had in months and am very full and contend and sleepy...orz will sleep self into piggishi state someday. will update with lots of pictures tomorrow...i must say XD a very very cute UKE (ok this is japanese and if u don't know what it means...orz that's ok too) came to the dorm and played guitar and sang deep into the night. It was one of the best experiences though...even though he wasn't exactly on key the whole time and the tunes were simple, it just felt great to have a guy play guitar like that, a kind of enjoyable experience to have listened to. I adore guys with talent, that's what I search for the most I guess. Sheer, raw, music/artistic/drama talent. these things never fail to impress me XD Went shopping today after dinner and unfortunately the cake shop which was supposedly good was closed...guess it's god's sign I should go on a diet orz I was gonna turn vegetarian for this week until we hit the korean food place with the ribs soup which is at which point i kinda broke down my defenses and said whatever i'm carnivorous and don't even know why i bother with a vegetarian diet...besides, supposedly eating just veggies don't make u skinnier, gotta eat less starch food, e.g. rice and noodles? hmmmmm...new chinese FMA fan story series, focusing on a more funny route, seem to be getting well, receiving lots of votes and messages encouraging me to go on from people i don't know. this is always a good sign...and I cut my own bangs again today orz they seem to grow v fast, every couples of days they would cover my eyes again...mmmmm, brought back korean sushi...ok, will go to bed...NOW. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
2:21 pm	translation decided.SEA MIST CHAPTER 1 Ok, i know nobody will bother to read this but anyway i've decided to translate my original story/novel into english, and do one chapter everyday. hopefully some will enjoy it. as soon as the results comes out on the 15th, and if i don't win (i know i won't, i just want to see who does) i will submit the story to the editors and hopefully they'll accept it and make a novel out of it~ ok well i'm going to take a shower now, will put translation on later. p.s. got accounting class today orz just chatted with VV...no, 鲸XDD and TT and will do more writing and translating later. the series is called 雾, which literally translates to Mist, but I want the English title to be Sea Mist. it's just better fitting. Sea Mist Chapter 1: The wind blew through the curtains silently and brought in the fresh air from the garden, which swirled around in the room like smoke, or incense. The redwood furniture gave off a strange smell, which it seemed to have brought from far, exotic places. Everything carried an ancient feel to it, almost graceful, except for the visitor amongst them, who seemed stand out amongst the Asian furniture sets. "Are you...an angel?" The weak voice came from the girl's shivering lips.The visitor shook her head slightly, and then seem to remember something important. "No, I'm not." Her voice is so deep it's almost not even women. And somewhere inside her heart, she was silently wondering if this girl here is also scared of her strange visage. But of course, to a girl so weak in body condition, it's almost impossible to gather the strength to be scared of anything. This visitor had been here many times, everyone is used to her presence, her special air, her shocking face, and something else that always radiated from her, a smell of the sea. Salty sea air came from her hair, came from every part of her, as light as the smell of a flower, it carried with it a sense of freedom. "That's right, you said you were a...pirate." The girl mused at these words. When this women first came, she used to play with this word, like a toy, as if it's something that shouldn't still exist in the modern day world. "And you, miss pirate, you just came from the sea? you're here to...take my life, right?" The women took out an old parchment expressionlessly, and on it, except for some foreign language carved in exotic Indian ink which no one can intepret, there was a clear fingerprint, done in blood, like a fresh signature on a death will, and our visitor did not hesitate in putting the paper directly in front of the girl. "You have signed this contract, I am simply here to collect the final price." The girl sighed and turned to her butler. "Dabu, tell me...the situation outside, please."She requested gracefully. The old man tried his best to control his voice. "They're all...waiting outside, all very worried, very sad...they're all worried for you. Some are crying...they said...said they didn't want to see you go." "Did you tell them what I told you to?" "I told them. I said, the mistress said for me to tell you all...please don't be sad...for me..." the old man could not go on, he began to choke on his own muffled sobs and came to a gradual stop, but the girl's lips began to twist into a relieved smile. "They love me...they all love me! For me! They are crying for me!" She said in an uncontrollable tone. Even though her body condition does not permit her to be excited, tears still trickled down her cheeks. As the visitor watched on without the slightest change on her face. "Go ahead, collect the final price and take my life. I have...achieved my wish, thus you have completed your side of the bargain." The girl finally said. She was crying, sobbing with silent joy. The women pressed the paper to the girl's forehead without a word. Soon, the weak body which already does not have much left in her collapsed between the pure white covers and blankets. This girl, who was once so filled with life, had now dwindled down to this. As her pupils began to dilate, instead of seeing it as if death is slowly overtaking her body, it's easier to say her life simply flowed out from her forehead into the sheet of parchment. A picture formed by many circles and strange signs began to appear on the paper, it covered all the letters and words, the only thing that was still visible was the mark in blood. The women ignored the broken cries of the old man beside her, and concentrated her whole attention onto the picture on the parchment. But, as the picture was finally completed, she could only sigh. "So it's not this one either..." She said in a slightly disappointed tone. Then, without a sound, she slipped the parchment into a old leather skin bag around her waist. But when the old man looked through his tear-filled eyes and wanted to ask her something, he found, to his own surprise ,that she was already gone. __________________________________________________________________________________________________________ "checkmate!" The child shouted excitedly. Allare could only sigh. "Have you been having too much time on your hands lately?" "C'mon, Allare, why don't you just go ahead and compliment my skills? What do you mean haivng too much time and all that crap..." Roy frowned disappointedly. With one single stroke of his hands, the checkerboard and the checkers themselves flew into the air as if controlled by some invisible force. The checker pieces flew neatly into the box, while the board folded itself. And then, Roy looked around expectantly. "Why isn't Blood back yet?" The fair-haired Allare watched the child's every move. Everytime he sees this surprising ability, it amuses him no ends. Apparently Roy is still a child, yet he..."It might not be a bad thing that she's returning late. If the soul from this time's collection fits as a key to the thirteenth door, then since we have already opened the twelfth door, then...heaven's doors might not be that far off..." He trailed off slightly. "Ne, Allare, do you truly believe it?" Roy made himself float in the air, and flew silently behind Allare. "Do you believe that...for people who are already dead but cannot go to heaven, people like us...because our sins are not unforgivable, and that we had chosen to become pirates, and move onto find the key and open the thirteenth door...that we can truly go to heaven and be pardoned?" "No." Allare said decidedly, but his eyes tell another story. "But if we don't choose this option, we go straight to hell...so, even if we have even the slightest chance of avoiding hell, I think this is worth going on with." He said lightly. "Bright little rays of sunshine aren't you?" Roy laughed out loud. "Makes me really curious as to what is it that you did when you were alive that landed you here in the first place." Allare did not follow Roy's laughter, but rather, his lips curved slightly upwards, unknown images which only he could understand flashed across his black eyes. "That was a long long time ago..." He mused at himself. Suddenly, the cabin door opened, and what came in first was a gust of the mist outside, the white fog almost completely camoflauged the figure rushing to get into the cabin, who slammed the door behind her hurriedly. Roy seemed to have had a hunch, and bounced up excitedly, but lost control of his own strength, and the cabin echoed with a sickening thump as his head hit the cieling with a force that shook the whole ship. "Aah!"Roy shouted as he fell through the air, but was caught by a pair of strong hands beneath him that just came into the cabin. He rubbed his head through tears but did not forget to manage a smile. "Blood! You're ...back!" Allare also smiled and stood up, but the women's tall figure just simply seem to tower over him. "How's the haul this time?" He asked. "The soul this time was second level, pretty precious, but...once again, it's the key to the sixth door."Blood held Roy close to her as if he was her own child. It had been long since she remembered her own child, maybe if they grew up by a bit, they'd look like Roy too. "We should sell this immediately, then we'll get at least 2 pieces of information regarding the location of the key souls we need for the doors." "I'll go!" Roy pushed Blood aside and shouted eagerly. He immediately flew into and disappeared into the hallway, Allare took over the parchment from Blood to examine the pattern upon it. "...must've been a beauty, eh?" He asked suddenly. "why don't you take the next mission?" Blood perched her lips and said sarcastically. "Not my fault I always end up with old lady and stinking hooligans..." Suddenly, Allare' sentence got cut short by Roy's sudden arrival. "I got it here!" Roy sang as he floated into the room with a strange machine behind him. (my god, translating is harder than it looked...i gotta remember back to the time when i was translating my dad's company contracts...XD) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
10:08 am	square one ok well since i don't know what a LJ-cut is, i guess i'll just have to put the pictures at the bottom of the journal and assume that's what it means XDDD beautiful weather, lotta sunshine, it's like california in a forest. Ok, you know those glowing moments? not very difficult to explain. As a writer, i value readers opinion more than simply votes and pageviews. and then this turned up today in my conference room page: "实在太令我震撼了……一口气把大大的两篇英国系列和德国系列的长文看 完，佩服得五体投地啊！！完全把历史、人性以及人物性格完美地结合起 来，读上去有行云流水之感啊……尤其是德国系列，写到纳粹集中营中各 种人性的阴暗和闪光点时，令我不得不惊叹…………结局也处理得很顺 畅，总之就是震撼啊！！请一定要继续加油，写出更多更好的文出来！！ 支持支持！！！ " and I couldn't have been happier. it says (just as a rough translation) "I am in complete awe. Finished your Germany series and England series all in one go, and am in complete awe. It was a perfect connection between history, humanity, and the human personality, and flowed so well...especially in the Germany series, when you wrote about the highlights and low points of humanity in the concentration camp, i was swept away...the ending was well done too, overall it is just amazing! please continue and come out with more good works!" Don't ask about what the story is about orz it's a very very long Chinese fan fiction of Fullmetal Alchemist. if you don't see the link, then don't ask. but it's just made my day. I love it when I get encouraging notes from the reader like this, it lets me know people are still reading my stuff, that they appreciate this. Have accounting this afternoon, gonna pick up the test orz god i don't want to see it...i don't understand why i'm in commerce orz i just want to draw and write...hopefully i'll publish a novel this year, depending on what i wrote on myfreshnet can get past the judges and editors or not orz... on another note, going to square one with Katie and Roshni~ looking forward to it, shopping, eating, and then movies. seems almost too good for end of semester, doesn't it? but since final exams are not yet for a long time...oh well. well i sure hope this is under the LJ cut. if it's not, please tell me what to do orz since i have no idea what it is. ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
3:16 pm	rain ok, this is almost masochistic...but i swear it's not. People love sunshine in general, but I love the rain especially when i'm inside, with the light off, just listening to the rain, it's very depressing but I love the mood. Playing "Bittersweet symphony", listening to the rain, the dark atmosphere...there's something so beautiful about this that's hard to explain. hopefully the lightening doesn't just...struck power line and we have another black out orz it's happened before. Why do people strive on competition? there's nothing wrong with it, of course, but...it's really depressing. I have it when someone wins over you and then turns around to tell you that "it's been fun competing with you" because you know what? that's a line that only the winner has the right to say, and it's virtually pointless, it's a brag to make the losing side feel even worse, because they know that the winner has the right to say this line and sound natural, when the losing side says this is sounds like they're trying to find and excuse to compensate their bad feeling. that's why i hate it when i went onto myfreshnet bbs and someone whose pageviews and votes has always been in competition with mine (who did surpass me in the end) left me a message saying "thanx for giving me the motive to beat you" basically...god... it's raining. I love it. It's raining all over. the sky's a dirty shade of gray, I love it. the rain washes over the pines, touches every needle...I love it. and yet here i am save inside, watching god's tears drop...I love sharing the depressingness of it all... Krys scared me today XD she's my roommate and has the same psych class as me. she said the test's this week, of course, I, like usual, hadn't studied at all...but luckily Katie and Roshni was right, the test is next week. another painless scare. Am currently drawing the character design for Blanchette with the light off...not a v good idea, hopefully everything turn out. a picture of ff7ac...shinra. Cloud was a SOLDIER, Vincent was a TURK, Reno still is a TURK...I'm starting to support RR subconsiously. RR referring to Reno and Rufus, nothing related to FMA... an original chara that I so painstakingly named after Roy Mustang but with a different last name orz or it would have violated the law... I think I have an obsession with Tooru Ookawa's voice. I mean...I love Rufus Shinra, and Roy Mustang...two of my all time favs, but they're both voiced by Tooru Ookawa san. There's just something so magnetic about his voice. one thing to mention though...after first watching the Japanese version, then listening to the English version, Roy's English voice actor sounds up to the scratch XD very good. But Ed's voice actor...I must say, he's a great person with lotta talents, but after getting used to Paku Romi's voice for a year...it's kinda hard to accept such a change... ToT becasue they sound completely different. But there's the subtlety of language. In Japanese, it's possible for a woman to voice a guy's part and sound like a guy, but the way the English language is constructed...it makes it almost impossible. hmmm...hope it stops raining before psych class, got lots to do tonight...actually, that's not true. I just want to finish the chara design picture, then chat more with 蝶san. oh, and I finished watching Densha Otoku (train men) XDDD It was so touching, I cried at least literally 10 times during the whole series. I love it, and the girl who plays yamada's sister is the main character from Nobuta! XDDDD I love Saori, she's beautiful/////////// (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
12:59 pm	good weather I really want to go out today but since am at a lack of companion and am too lazy to go alone...sometimes i believe there's a factor of feeling intimidated by the world orz in Beijing I love going out alone just to stroll or go window shopping but the point is I love to emerge myself into the crowd. Here, there is no "crowd" for one thing, and for some reason I hate going outdoors...anywhere. final exams are this month, but immediately followed by summer semester. not much to say, I spent a whole day doing cleaning yesterday and finally my room is in a state of human living not pig sty. Still unable to open the liquer bottle...which is just as well since I only take a sip anyway even if I could open it, but it bugs me that even a bottle is against me XD Wanting to go to square one this after noon but likely to spend a whole day just staying indoors in front of the comp again anyway, since even though the weather had never been so nice, there's always the fact that I just simply ... am never ready to leave my room. Otaku. that's what it is, isn't it? XD I have anime posters all over my room and 2 models...i simply took the meaning of otaku to be someone who's reluctant to leave the room. anyway here are some...pictures. actually, they're more like character designs for my story on myfreshnet.com. not like i'm expecting anyone on livejournal to read it since most of the livejournal population don't speak Chinese, but it might be just interesting to look at. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
1:19 pm	windy + ptchat anyone is welcomed to my oekaki bbs~ http://www15.oekakibbs.com/bbs/flames/oekakibbs.cgi hmm.. it's really windy outside today. Yesterday we went downtown, actually just me and Nemo. I was supposed to go with Sharon but it rained so she was complainy and didn't want to go...which made me want to go even more...something about teenage rebellion, though i'm getting past that age...with a horrifying realization, i know that i'm getting old orz and it's true too. 19... anyway, slept wel last night after full meal of korean food. Am now in one of those wonderful wonderful paintchats, with 鲸,Balukalulu,岚夜,cz,血之苍雨,皇冬,LEAFIT,SHARON,H,AILEE,TT and 黑川SAN. It just happens to be the only thing that sustains me through the week...this paint chat, I will upload the results tomorrow. This is a ff7ac chara ptchat only XD and the people who participate are just ... orz too good. seriously. Actually yesterday when i went downtown i was in search of cosplay costume for AN (what I had in mind was gothic lolita...) but after i saw the prices (150-200 CAD !!!!) I was like...nvmind, maybe i don't belong to this world orz it's certainly too expensive to buy anything in canada. ok...omg~~ 藏王大志(the artist of princess princess and many other doujins related to gundam seed, fullmetal alchemist, etc.) and 高河弓(artist of "loveless" has paintchats every saturday like us~ and though i can't enter because they set a code, but i'm so curious about this////////////) ok, also taking this opportunity to mourn for 鲸's VV, the livly that died orz just discovered that Livlies can be such cute things...too bad i can't find a way to link it into here. blog pets are so cute XD ok, gotta stop ranting...put some pictures in. fullmetal alchemist, roy x ed. this is just some random character design for the story contest which ended on myfreshnet.com. acutally since there is no main chara...this is Allare. This is our first round of p-chat: participants: cloud: 莲见 蝶 殿 yazoo: LEAFIT 殿 sephy: 岚夜 殿 reno: me orz rufus: CZEPHYR殿 kadaj: 时雨 殿 will update second picture later...second picture v funny XD it's like a drunken party in mourning for vv...or to make fun of cloud...XD ok, here's the second battle. sephiroth: 岚夜 殿 Tseng： Balukalulu 殿 Rufus：me。 Reno：TT 殿 Rude： TT 殿 cloud：血之苍雨 殿 Kadaj： Leafit 殿 here's what it started with...sephy and tseng were drunk, so.... tseng: that loli is hot... sephy: that's so not a loli then it came to this: Tseng: 300 bucks sephy: i thought we agreed on 150? selling rufus, eh? XD this is what it began with. and then... finally... tseng: i think purple looks great, don't you? sephy: i thought maybe yellow would be better... i'm just kinda speechless at this one XDD (Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
11:30 am	couldn't remember the last time i used this thing orz well...it just happens that nobody in china actually uses this thing, so i dropped it, but with the upcoming AN and everything happening, i thought i might as well start. Not to expect anyone to read it, but rather to just simpy keep record. Me, Sharon, and Cherry, will be renting a table, selling prints. Everything is going smoothly, or at least i think. BAck in Beijing, I've just finished a week ago my 52 chapters long roy edo fan fic (in chinese of course) and is now planning to publishi in doujin form but only open to chinese ppl since others can't understand it anyway orz on another tone, the myfreshnet contest just ended half an hour ago. I made it into top 20 but i doubt that story would make it to top 10. I was the 11th...just one space away ToT but even if the story isn't selected for judging, i'll still send the novel to the publishers. one of these days...maybe it's not so bad to have ambition. I mean...one of these days I will get a proper book published. I swear. somedays it seemed that nothing mattered anymore. I have one person telling me that they finished 52 chapters in one day and was fascinated by the story...that was all that was needed to make my day.it wasn't fame or recognition...I just had to search for a certain feeling, that I was getting somewhere with my life. that i was 19, and i was getting something done. ok, enough ranting. i have to go get ready now...am currently chatting with 莲见 蝶, who is my doujin cover artist. She's such a cute girl...orz something i will never be able to achieve XD alright ,enough. gotta go change icon... ok, maybe...they said i can use html, so i'll try to post some of the pictures i've been doing recently, for the story on myfreshnet, and for AN. GLOBAL_HEAD<= <=GLOBAL_HEAD (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
5:44 am	ok, still alive... ...but just barely so. who knows college can be such a @(*#&*@#&$??!! I had to go to three different banks just to get my friggin tuition paid! geezus...The first bank wouldn't take mastercard, the second bank got my card screwed up and the third bank had to phone the mastercard base to check if they can take out so much money...this place is so remote it's like a non-living community. had to drive half-an-hour to China town before I can get the university of Toronto's fees paid...what is this?! anyway...since i haven't updated in a while, thought i might type something here and now. Aside from my disasterous real life, i've been having an off-net time, because I've been too busy to do anything online. see? have to go now...will update later. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
6:43 pm	anime society~ aren't i ever glad to see an anime society at the U of T? XD I luv it! that's why I am probably choosing to go to U of T instead of Illinois. U of T has what was more important in my life, Anime. i'm going to start ranting, and I know it. I started anime in ...first grade. evern since I first laid my eyes on something called "sailor moon" I knew i wouldn't be able to stay off anime. it's gonna last forever, i know it. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
9:53 pm	Acceptance at Uof T! Woot! I got accepted at the University of Toronto~ so happy~ and now...have to concentrate on getting friggin IB exams done, and after that, I have to...get my doujinshi out XP I have everything done, am just waiting for a few pictures. For some reason I am really into army uniforms now...they're just too hot XD though that's totally unrelated...tomorrow am going to starbucks to celebrate XD (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
11:12 pm	is it just me? XD Well i got the week-free subscription from dev art...but since i got it i was unable to post pictures onto dev art anymore...is it just me? XD the Doujinshi is coming along very well, I am now only waiting for two people's pictures. I will be able to get it to the layout people very soon~ i am now done completely with the story part of the doujinshi, and my share of the illustration and pictures, and i will soon replace my icon with a face of Roy to celebrate~~ XD one of these days...ORZ I am now 1 day away from my first IB exam...i forgot whether it was Chinese or Math, but I hope tomorrow I can get some information regarding the study session for Math, I really need to work on integrating, I hate it. I really need some sleep...after 48 hours of no sleep, I feel so grumpy I'm gonna start biting ppl soon. Things to look forward to: China studies, trip to Yangshuo , the prettiest scenery in China! Harry Potter (I wrote Pitter for some reason the first time I typed it here) and the Half blooded Prince! Harry Potter is always worth looking forward to, but now that Sirius is gone...XP Doujinshi Publication! I'm gonna get a doujinshi published! haha, I just wanted to get something done before high-school, this is my ultimate goal before graduation. ok, no more ranting. Oh, one more thing, senior prom~~ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 25th, 2005
3:34 pm	kay, i'm alive... since i'm going to uni i thought i might as well start using this thing... I've accepted my "acceptance" at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, can't wait to start college life! on the other hand... I just got my IB art interview done~ the examiner was so nice~~ he made the interview process easier for me by being so nice, and i really appreciate it, tonight...hehe tonight's the art reception, i'm gonna have to be there ...urg... the senior video was so nice~they had everyone's photos~ regarding my doujinshi...published in around may seemed not to be possible..hopefully around june then XP (Comment on this)